HAVING A COKE WITH YOU

Heving a cook with you is even more fun than going to San Sebastian, Irún, Hendaye, Biarritz, Bayonne
or being sick to my stomach on the Travesera de Gracia in Barcelona
partly because in your orange shirt you look like a better happier St. Sebastian
partly because of my love for you, partly because of your love for yoghurt
partly because of the fluorescent orange tulips around the birches
partly because of the secrecy our smiles take on before people and statuary
it is hard to believe when I'm with you that there can be anything as still
as solemn as unpleasantly definitive as statuary when right in front of it
in the warm New York 4 o'clock light we are drifting back and forth
between each other like a tree breathing through its spectacles

and the portrait show seems to have no faces in it at all, just paint
you suddenly wonder why in the world anyone ever did them

I look
at you and I would rather look at you than all the portraits in the world
except possibly for the Polish Rider occasionally and anyway it's in the Frick
which thank heavens you haven't gone to yet so we can go together the first time
and the fact that you move so beautifully more or less takes care of Futurism
just as at home I never think of the Nude Descending a Staircase or
at a rehearsal a single drawing of Leonardo or Michelangelo that used to wow me
and what good does all the research of the Impressionists do them
when they never got the right person to stand near the tree when the sun sank
or for that matter Marino Marini when he didn't pick the rider as carefully
as the horse

it seems they were all cheated of some marvelous experience
which is not going to go wasted on me which is why I am telling you about it

—Frank O'Hara

On My Drafts

I want you back.
I'm mess without you.
I miss you very effin much.
I miss your smile.
I miss how things happen when we're together.
I know we have BIG problem and,
yes, its gonna cost us so many time and tears.
But we can work it out.
Promise me, we can.
Please come back.




Save to drafts?
Yes

My Personal Heroine.

Sebenernya lagu ini udah lama banget. Tapi gatau kenapa sampe skarang seneng aja sama kata-katanya. Hehe.
Dulu dibuat sama mantan gw.. Lagunya nyritain pas pertama kali kita ketemu :)
And here goes...

My Personal Heroine (By : YP)

it was 3 in the morning
when i got back from this long trip
and my bones falls apart
there i met you
for the very first time
my body shuttered
we text a lot
but we didn't talk at all
and like a fool i leave so soon
one smile two laugh three i fell in love
i don't care what planet you're from
cause right now i'm so into you
wondering what you've been up to?
any chance that you'll be thinking of me too?
back to when i met you
for the very first time
my body shuttered
we chat till midnite and we'll be asleep
and like a fool i hide the truth
one smile two laugh three i fell in love
i don't care what planet you're from
cause right now i'm so into you
through the distance which is daring
will you be my personal heroine?
for me you're my best medicine
the words scribbled in my mind
cut my slit and let me die.

Jujuuuuur baru pertama kali dibikinin lagu sama cowo. Ya ini lagunya!! Hahaha.
Inget banget pas pertama kali dia ngasih tau lagu ini, pipi gue langsung merah kaya tomat :")
Anyway.. I uberlove this song :>

Faithfull? or ........

Setia.. Kata yang satu itu pasti jadi sesuatu yang kita harapin banget waktu kita ngejalanin suatu hubungan sama seseorang.
Kita pasti pengen pasangan kita bisa setia sama kita. Dan sebaliknya kita bakal berusaha banget setia sama pasangan kita sebisa mungkin. Iya kan? :)
Tapi, kata "setia" juga gak cuma berlaku buat mereka yang ngejalanin hubungan aja lho..
Hemmm maksudnya gini, gue kasih contoh konkret nya aja kali ya atau bisa dibilang study kasus nya.. :D
Jadi gue punya temen (cowo), lemayan deket, dan gue sdikit banyak tau tentang "lovelife" nya dia.
Menurut gue pribadi, jarang banget gue denger cerita tentang cowo yang kaya gini. Unik sekaligus salut.
Mungkin yang gue ceritain ini, cuma sebates jadi "versi" gue yang ditambah sedikit kesotoyan gue. Hehehe. Jadi maaf kalo emang mungkin gue gak bisa cerita banyak..
Hmmm.
Jadi temen gue itu (cowo) sebut aja X, suka sama 1 cewe sebut aja si Y. Dan gue tau X suka sama Y dari pertama kali dia ketemu Y. Kelas 1 sma.
X satu kelas sama Y waktu itu. Mungkin jg X suka atau jatuh cinta sama Y pd pandangan pertamanya. Mungkin. Tapi feeling gue sih iya deh. Hahahaa
Dia suka sama Y dari kelas 1 sma, dan sampe skrg dia udah kuliah.. Sekedar info, mereka 1 tempat kuliah skrg.
Mungkin selama 4 tahun X suka sama Y, udah banyak yang X korbanin buat Y. Perhatian, waktu, tenaga, semuanya buat Y.
Sampe seakan-akan dia dibutain sama apa yang ada di sekitarnya. Dalam arti, dia ga pernah mencoba buat ngebuka hati untuk orang lain. Mungkin pernah, tapi semuanya bakal punya ending yang sama. Dia gabakal bisa bener-bener ngapus Y dari hati nya.
Gue pernah nanya ke temen gue ini (X) kenapa dia sampe segitu nya. Jujur gue suka sama jawabannya waktu itu, dia bilang "Gue sebagai cowo punya prinsip ki, mungkin gue salah ngartiin prinsip itu sendiri"
Dan yak! Gue speechless gabisa ngomong apa-apa. Mungkin emang itu udah jadi pilihan dia.. Dia yang ngejalanin itu semua. Dan gue gak bakal pernah ngerti gimana rasanya nunggu orang yang kita sayang segitu lama nya..
Cuma satu yang gue tau dan gue dapet dari ini semua.. Terlalu setia itu emang bisa bikin kita keliatan bodoh dimata orang lain. Tapi dibalik kebodohan itu sendiri kita bisa banyak belajar.. Belajar buat sabar, belajar sayang sama seseorang tanpa mengharapkan timbal balik dia bakalan balik sayang sama kita, belajar berkorban u/ orang lain tanpa pamrih, belajar tulus, dan.. Belajar ikhlas..... Buat apapun yang terjadi didepan.

Ps : Buat yang ngerasa ini cerita tentang love life nya. Maaf ya udah ngepost tanpa izin sebelumnya. Cuma pengen berbagi pengalaman aja ko :)

I'll Move On - Olivia Ong

I'll Move On
by : Olovia Ong

This road that I'm taking twists and turns
My life my chance turning dreams into reality.
Down this path faced with so many things
Sometimes I feel like giving up and turn away

Can't seem to go on
And I've been thru' this before
Now where am I?
Where do I stand?
A little lost here.
But I'll remember.
All those times you've bought me thru'.
I'd be a fool to give up cos' the goal is near

I'll move on I'll go on.
Lord I will take your hand.
And you will guide me along.
Survive thru' this storm.
So I say, come what may.
I'll hold on to my hope.
Yes, I will walk down this road.
And my passion drive will lead me on

Here I am Once again caught in the rain.
Looking back I've come so far And I want to carry on
Take a step at time
It's alright.
Even thru' this rain, I want to smile again

Don't hold back now.
And i've been thru' this before.
Now where am I?
Where do I stand?
A little lost here.
But I'll remember.
All those times you've bought me thru'.
I can feel the sun shining down on me

Here I am, Here I am.
Lord I will take your hand.
And you will guide me along.
Survive thru' this storm.
So I say, come what may.
I'll hold on to my hope.
Yes, I will walk down this road.
And my passion drive will lead me on.

Lagi gak tau mau nulis apa, eh kepikiran buat nge-share lagu ini. Hehehe.
Gak tau kenapa lagu ini selalu bisa bikin gue kuat kalo lagi ngerasa down. Bisa diliat dari liriknya emang bagus banget dan dalem. Hehehe.
Kalo yang belum tau lagu nya bisa di download disini http://www.4shared.com/get/107390212/792c1e01/Olivia_Ong_-_Ill_Move_On.html :)

Gak seharusnya nge post hal kaya gini, but it makes me feel better.

Libur udah tinggal beberapa hari lagi. Besok udah Jumat aja. Hhhhhhhhh. Jujur kebanyakan libur bikin gue ngerasa bukan anak skolah lagi. Hahaha gimana engga, klo di itung-itung gue libur hampir 3 minggu. Dan 3 minggu itu berhasil ngebuat gue males balik skolah normal lagi..

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Eniwei akhir-akhir ini setelah gue amat amatin, bb gue ko makin lama makin bulukan dan makin keliatan kaya pajangan ya? fungsi aslinya udah ga ketara. Mahal-mahal bb on tapi jarang dipake.
Skalinya lcd kedap-kedip kalo ga group bbm kalo ga broadcast message, skalinya ada yang sms palingan dr operator axis. Haha nasibbbbb
Rasanya bb gue bener-bener udah berubah fungsi jadi pajangan tetap di kamar gue.


Kayanya gue malah kalah sama dia deh -_-"

Pengen rasanya balik ke beberapa minggu kmarin, waktu bb gue blm brubah fungsi jadi pajangan meja blajar gue, ya walopun cuma karna satu orang sih hehehe. Tapi gue tau klo bb gue kedip-kedip pasti itu dia.
Kalo layarnya nyala itu pasti bbm dari dia. Dan gue amat sangat excited buat buka dan langsung ngebaca isinya sambil sesekali senyum-senyum atau ketawa sendiri.
Kadang gue ngerasa kangen sama perasaan itu.. Perasaan semangat kalo liat ada bbm baru, perasaan semangat kalo ada sms atau telfon masuk. Perasaan semangat kalo ada yang ngirimin voicenote2 lucu, buat sekedar bilang slamat malem atau hal-hal yang gak penting lainnya..
Malah smua voicenote nya masih gue simpen sampe skarang, dan cuma itu yang bisa jadi obat penyemangat atau pengurang rasa kangen yang lemayan ampuh buat gue. Hahaha.

Gue sendiri gatau sampe kapan bisa kuat kaya gini..
semuanya udah terlalu nyapein buat disimpen sendiri. Maaf kalo jadi nya curhat yaaaa. Gue tau seharusnya engga disini. Gue tau engga banyak orang yang cukup dewasa untuk tidak mengambil kesimpulan sendiri dan menilai cerita orang lain dengan setengah matang.
Tapi dengan cara gue nulis disini perasaan gue bisa lebih tenang. Setidaknya untuk sekarang..
Setidaknya gue ga harus nyimpen semuanya sendiri.

I MISS YOU

Kata orang kalo mau nulis blog, tulisin perasaan yang paling kuat yang kita rasain saat ini kan ya?
Dan menurut gue perasaan itu adalah perasaan "kesepian"
Gue ngerasa lesu banget akhir-akhir ini.. Kaya gak ada penyemangat atau sesuatu yang bisa nginspirasi gue. Lagi males ngapa-ngapaaaaaaain. Lagi gabisa konsen. Lagi berantakan.
Jujur.. gue sendiri gamau terlalu berlarut-larut dan stuck di fase yang ga ngenakin ini. Gamau buang-buang waktu dengan do nothing kaya skarang.
Menurut gue, gue perlu nyari sesuatu. Sesuatu yang gue sendiri gatau apa. Tapi gue harus nemuin itu.

GUE KANGEN SAHABAT-SAHABAT GUE

GUE KANGEN TEMEN-TEMEN GUE

GUE KANGEN OBBIE


And i think.
i need to go out from Bogor.